IT’S TIME TO LET THINGS GO, CINTA…..

•April 3, 2009 • 4 Comments

This is a story about a girl named CINTA, and a boy named TIDAK CINTA.

TAKE 1 :
TIDAK CINTA : ” I love you, CINTA, I really-really love you, I can’t get you out of my mind , you are the best girl I’ve ever met, the other girls are nothing compared to you, will you be my girlfriend? ”
CINTA : ” Are you sure?, well I actually don’t believe in love again, but let’s try, I think I care about you so much, you are different from other boys I’ve met in my life. I’m your girl, now, TIDAK CINTA.”
TIDAK CINTA : “Thank you sweety, I’ll try my best for us to be together always, I’ll show you what’s the meaning of love…., I’ll never leave you….eventhough we know this will be difficult, but let’s try….”
CINTA : “ I trust you, TIDAK CINTA.”

TAKE 2 :
CINTA : “Why did you do that? Haven’t I sacrificed a lot for you? For us? Why?”
TIDAK CINTA : “ I don’t know, CINTA, it’s my ego as a man. Can you please understand that? , I still really really love you, I don’t want to lose you! “
CINTA : “Give me time to think , I need a space……”
TIDAK : “ Please don’t go, CINTA, I can’t get you out of my mind.”
CINTA : “Dearest, I will not leave you, I promise you this, I just need some time alone.”

TAKE 3 :
Just when CINTA was sure that she actually really loved TIDAK CINTA, and ready for any obstacles on their way, she found out that TIDAK CINTA had lied to her, for some unimportant thing. CINTA was very disappointed, upset, angry that she couldn’t control herself.
CINTA :” It’s over…I can’t understand why you lied to me for something like that. Why you risk our relationship for something like that? I’m sorry, good bye “
TIDAK CINTA :” Ok, I’m sorry…, but can I still call you sweetheart?”
CINTA : “ No way !, you hurt me, it means you don’t love me.”

TAKE 4 :
That night, after saying Good Bye to TIDAK CINTA, CINTA couldn’t sleep at all, she was crying, crying and crying until her pillow got really really wet. She regretted what happened that night. She loved him very much, but she lost control. CINTA was awake the whole night. When the morning came, she tried to call TIDAK CINTA, and begging him to come back to her. But unfortunately, TIDAK CINTA couldn’t accept her back for some reasons, he couldn’t even call her CINTA anymore, he called her CIN, instead. CINTA was very devastated.

CINTA :”You really cannot forgive me for what happened last night? I told you I’m really really sorry, I promise you that I’ll try my best to change, for you….Please don’t leave me…..”
TIDAK CINTA : “Sorry Cin, I can’t, I still have feeling for you, but I don’t want to go back to the way we were before.”

CINTA had to face the truth. Painful.

TAKE 5 :
(TEXT MESSAGING )
TIDAK CINTA :”Good morning dear, I’m ready for work, talk to you later.”
CINTA : “ ??? hah???, does this mean TIDAK CINTA is forgiving her and we are boyfriend and girlfriend again? Just like before? “

(ON THE PHONE )
While TIDAK CINTA and CINTA were talking on the phone, one of TIDAK CINTA’s friend interrupting the talk .
A FRIEND :” Sorry TIDAK CINTA’s girlfriend, I have to interrupt for a while.”
TIDAK CINTA :” This is not my girlfriend!”.
CINTA : “ @$$^&%&(*(*^&%$^&*()(*&^%$%^&*()(*&^%$%^&*()(*&^%$.”

TAKE 6 :
(TEXT MESSAGING )
TIDAK CINTA :”CIN, I just finished playing Squash, it feels good !”.
CINTA : “TIDAK CINTA, please stop this crap, you said you couldn’t go back to me, why you keep sending me sms, and calling me, too?, don’t you think that it would hurt me even more?, please , if you want to go, just go…..”
TIDAK CINTA :” A part of me still care about you, but the other part of me, don’t want you back”.
CINTA :” Can we just try again?Please? Please?.”
TIDAK CINTA : “ Sorry, I can’t.”
CINTA :” Ok, I’m not going to beg anymore, If you cannot go back to me, then I think you should go, please don’t contact me anymore…..”
TIDAK CINTA :”Ok.”

TAKE 7:
Closing.
CINTA , once again, learned her lesson, that she can’t just trust any men when they say they love her, especially when they are too sweet with their words.
CINTA was carried away with what TIDAK CINTA said to her. TIDAk CINTA really showed her what it was to cry. It was too good to be true. And if something is too good to be true, it’s definitely not true.

CINTA is letting things go now, and ready for a new love…..
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Balada Seorang Dara…

•March 28, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Bayu menerpa wajah sayu, satu dara ayu

terduduk, tersendu

Hatinya pilu dalam kalbu

Mengapa tiada terang suasana hatinya?


Hanya kegelapan, hati dalam duka

Mungkinkah dirasakan kebahagiaan yang abadi?

Mungkinkah didapatkan, sekeping cintanya?


Jiwanya Kini tetap suci, mengapa tiada henti  kemelut harinya?

Maka cerita cinta dara

Tetap jadi beku, terukir abadi…

Too Late…

•March 23, 2009 • 2 Comments

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I’m hearin what you say but I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say…

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it’s nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it’s turning blue, and you say…
“Sorry” like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid…

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
It’s too late to apologize, yeah
I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah-
I’m holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground…

There’s no need to argue anymore…

•March 8, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Capeee…….
Setelah denger semua alasan kenapa dia begitu and coba percaya semua ceritanya, ternyata lagi-lagi dia begitu. Sebentar begini, sebentar begitu.

Apa sih maksudnya dia begitu?
Kalau dengan begitu dia bermaksud untuk men-shout-me-down, ooopsiee, I have to let him down….coz It won’t happen on this earth …

Why not trying to accept the fact ( even if it’s bitter ), and stop arguing.
Reality bites?
Definitely.

Those Little Things That Count….

•March 4, 2009 • 1 Comment

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“Every little thing she does is magic……”

Yep , it’s from a song by The Police. I think the song has a good point there. Sometimes, it’s the little things that count.

These days I’ve been handling some kids who have special needs. They are unique in their own ways. What really amazed me was every little thing I do with them, they treasured so much. They are happy whenever I (try to) sing happy  kid songs, or even If I just ask them to count 1 to 10 , together with me.

Then, I tried to apply the ‘theory’ to some adults. My objects are my friends and  students. When it was one of my student’s 17th B’day, I gave her a mug which has her pic printed on it, and a pin of her Family portrait. She liked the gifts, coz they’re personalised. She hasn’t stop thanking me for that until now🙂 .

My friend, Jessie has been asking me to accompany her to buy ‘curling iron for the hair’, but unfortunately I haven’t had the chance to go with her. So, I sent my ojeg driver to her place to bring her my 2 sets of ‘curling iron’. I told her that she could use them until we finally get 1 for her. She thanked me dearly, and called me ‘sweetheart’.

A friend of mine was having problem with her relationship, she really really needed someone to talk to. I listened to her with my undevided attention. At the end, she told me that it was a relief that she vented out her feelings, and she thanked me endlessly…..

Now, how about those little things people do for me?

I’m always touched whenever I receive sms from my closest friend asking me how I’m doing and whether everything has been going well that particular day. I think not eveybody gets the chance to get that special attention.

The best little thing( that has BIG impact on me) though, whenever my daughter tells me : ” Mommy, you are so beautiful!”.  I know every child in the world would probably say the same thing to his/her mommy, but still it makes me thrilled…Nothing could top this.

So, let’s do sweet little things for people as we never know what impact they might have on them:)

Hmm…

•November 24, 2008 • 2 Comments

It’s been quite sometime since I last posted here, my own blog, where I can write just about anything…well not really ‘anything’, but so-to-say anything…

Life has been pretty busy for me these days, teaching, teaching, teaching ( see..I’m soooo a teacher ), browsing, chatting ( yeah… ), dealing with prospective clients, managing my 2 working-for-me  Bahasa teachers ( proudly said ), testing my new laptop ( ehhmm.. ), going out with friends, taking my daughter to places she likes, dating ( missing you …badly, hun…hiks… ), etc etc..ooppsie I forgot to mention that I’ve signed up to a fitness centre “Clark Hatch”, but I only came twice so far😦, I promised myself to go there more often, though ( yeah right😛 )

I found myself so bad at managing time. I always think that 24/7 is never enough for me. I need extra hours and days. There are still some unfinished business I need to deal with…

1.  Appointments to meet :

* Yvonne ( We planned to have lunch together somewhere in Thamrin area, but until now, we haven’t had the chance to do it. Von, if you read this, our plan is still on, ya……please be patient…..)

* Sakia ( Also lunch rendevouz in Blok M area or PIM ,  but yet we haven’t been able to manage the time )

* Jessie ( We planned to have our eyelashes done😉  )

* Yulianti and Dian ( …lunch, again )

* Cella ( I promised to visit her at KIS Radio )

* And Many More… ( not MANDY MORE ! heheh ..)

2. Things to be done

* Compiling Bahasa Materials from some sources

* Getting an ear candle treatment

* Redecorating my bedroom ( well, it’s half done ..hurrayyyy )

* Following up my been-so-long-no-hear-from students

* Finding a good music school for my daughter

* Finding a not-too-expensive computer course for my assistant ( Other people may call it MAID, instead )

* Finishing watching ‘The L word’ ( *giggling* )

* And Many More ( again, not MANDY MORE….. heheheh)

Despite all the things above, I actually have accomplished some good stuff, which are :

* Finally posted a new stuff here😀

* My project of organizing an event for Jakarta International School, parents-teachers Tea Time at Hotel    Mulia was relatively successful. ( Special thanks to Tessy, girl…didn’t know how it would’ve turned out  without  having you as my partner )

* Got 2 deals for Bahasa Classes ( yippppyyyy )

* Attending PTA at my daughter’s school ( hey…surprisingly there are some HOT mommas, too…. who I    could probably hang out with )

* ( This time I can’t write ‘MANY MORE’)

The fact that I’m a single parent, has always been my excuses for not getting everything done. I know it’s not right, but Whitney said : it’s ok😉

( I have to stop at this point, since my bakso is served on the table, heheheh )

Indahnya S.E.P.I

•October 17, 2008 • 9 Comments
Indahnya Sepi...

Indahnya Sepi...

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ku tetap mandiri…


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